The question became, “how do I become the person I need to be?” The answer came, “by being free.”
Mind
Body
& Soul
Be Free.
It begins in Jersey. A pink room junked from wall to wall. I am surrounded by memories, memoirs, old dreams, and new nightmares. Somehow, I got caught up waiting for life to come to me. Now I see I have to go to it. I have to run full speed reaching and grab every piece that I can; give it my all.
Breathe.
Nikki Ntu plays in the background. She’s new, not to the craft but to me, providing the soundtrack to this “new” beginning, speaking words unsaid, poetic, profound, inspirational, and true.
Down to Earth.
A place I wish to be. It reads, “letting go never felt so good.” I wonder if I listen hard enough will she tell me how to do just that. Let go
Fear playing tricks on a weak mind.
Two minutes and twenty-something seconds to the end of the download. Counting down to letting go…
Finding Relevance.
I strip away pages of words written with pain ill-disguised. Emotions so raw, I need to hide. In a search for clarity, they crowd my path. Welcome Destiny. For the longest I’ve been allowing my inhibitions to hold hostage all that I know to be true about myself. I’ve been trying to hide it all afraid that if seen I’d be mindlessly ridiculed and question; made a fool out of. Slowly, the fool is emerging, despite my attempts. I cannot hide.
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